Chapter 13: N.I.C.U.
I say my goodbyes to my family and Naomi and I turn around and walk through the long white corridor of the hospital with the doctor. I am having ongoing thoughts, images of my life just flowing through my mind. I felt terrible for Naomi because she could not come with me. Am I cursed? Is Naomi cursed now, too, because she is with me? Is my baby girl going to die? She can't eat or drink. How can someone live without eating and drinking? I hop into the ambulance and off to Philly I go-scared as shit!
SNOW, SLEET, and SLUDGE is what I see as I get into the ambulance. It is cold in the ambulance. I look down at my little baby. She is in an incubator with all types of wires and tubes hooked up to her. She looks like she is in pain and there is nothing that I could do. There were attempts from the paramedics to make small talk, but I really was not up to it. How could I? There was silence. Dead silence. Then, BEEP The paramedics react swiftly making some adjustment to the tubes that were attached to Rachel in order to make the noise go away. When that sound went off, I became terrified, but thankfully, nothing was wrong.
